last night my mom found out i want to be a guy.
she found out i almost tried to kill myself the night before.
she found out another side to me.

i've gotten into the car and started the engine.
starting down the driveway slowly and my heart seems to pound out of my chest, it isn't beating rythmicly but rather in spurts leaping from one moment to the next
i'm backing up.. the tires are rolling
anxiety overtakes me, i jurk forward from my sudden stop
beads of sweat roll down my face
my stomach churns
i've gone as far as i can go
i'll make it out of the driveway one night...
yes, some other night

location: under the planets mood: half asleep